That's what you get when you let your heart win...

I'm blogging here because only ONE person looks here and while I don't ever fully trust anyone, she's about as close as they come.
I love ya sister girly jewish ma ma!!!!!!!!!
She already listened to my half buzzed ass earlier but i'm still all bleh. It's technically the 11th not but the 10th was only hours before. It feels as though my life has changed and everything has become rocky.
That's such bullshit.
Mikey...I know this isn't gonna last, it won't even really hurt me when you don't text me anymore. Because I know it will happen.
I was a fantasy but isn't it kinda boring once you have it? You only think you want it young sir. It'll pass trust me. Infact, i'm wondering if i'm the one who should cut ties.
Hmm, perhaps.
And Aaron. You are an idiot. A huge idiot!
You know I like you and you like me. So there's an age difference, so what? I've gotten past it, why can't you? It's legal and I'M the one who's gonna get crap.
Maybe you don't even like me, but the way your hand grasps mine so tightly and your breathing changes when we're close...That smile...and that look in your eyes that i'm so sure is reflecting mine.
Stressful and hurtful feelings.
I can't be that sort of thing to Mikey and I wanna be everything to Aaron...
And that's what you get when you let your heart win.